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05/23/2005: "ALL ALONE - THAT'S WHAT IT FEELS LIKE"

So this is what a blog is huh...... not all that exciting, I just wanted to put down some thoughts and had no where to put them. So....... I've been thinking WAY too much the past few months (which for me isn't good) and now that I'm done with the EXTREMELY stressed stage I'm left with the thought process. Soo far I think the jist of it is that I'm now not quite sure what I want to do in life (which kind of scares me), not sure that I'm in the right field of education (but I want to be), wish I wasn't living where I am now, I miss Vlad (who can make me smile no matter what), and I feel very alone (big shock considering the name up top) regardless of having a great family (even if one member and I drive each other nuts ninety-nine percent of the time)....... miss seeing a certain couple people from school and miss not climbing all the time...... need a good summer job but that's not happening right now, just the same crap from the past couple years....... don't feel like I can talk to anybody around here (I can think of one person back at school that I could though.... if only I knew them a little better I just might).......

Soo much for a semi-perfect life (I guess it's really up to me how I want to perceive things)........ I just want things to go somewhat easy..... tired of things not going as planned and always making it harder on me (no, I'm not one of those people that thinks the world is out to get them, I'm just not having a great time right now)......... here's hoping things look up soon......

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suggestion: wait until it's raining out. then go out without an umbrella and run really fast around the block. then, go home and make chamomile tea. Sip it slowly and look out the window as you dry off.

It's a guaranteed cure for whatever ails you.

doc said @ 05/25/2005 09:27 AM CST