ALL ALONE - THAT'S WHAT IT FEELS LIKE
So this is what a blog is huh...... not all that exciting, I just wanted to put down some thoughts and had no where to put them. So....... I've been thinking WAY too much the past few months (which for me isn't good) and now that I'm done with the EXTREMELY stressed stage I'm left with the thought process. Soo far I think the jist of it is that I'm now not quite sure what I want to do in life (which kind of scares me), not sure that I'm in the right field of education (but I want to be), wish I wasn't living where I am now, I miss Vlad (who can make me smile no matter what), and I feel very alone (big shock considering the name up top) regardless of having a great family (even if one member and I drive each other nuts ninety-nine percent of the time)....... miss seeing a certain couple people from school and miss not climbing all the time...... need a good summer job but that's not happening right now, just the same crap from the past couple years....... don't feel like I can talk to anybody around here (I can think of one person back at school that I could though.... if only I knew them a little better I just might).......
Soo much for a semi-perfect life (I guess it's really up to me how I want to perceive things)........ I just want things to go somewhat easy..... tired of things not going as planned and always making it harder on me (no, I'm not one of those people that thinks the world is out to get them, I'm just not having a great time right now)......... here's hoping things look up soon......
posted by s2y4c @ 05:23 PM CST [link]
Saturday, November 12, 2005
So it's been months since I've written anything on here. Honestly I'd forgotten about the whole 'blog' thing until I got this computer back. Here's an update on my life.....
I decided to stay at home this year and go to school in town. BIG mistake though.... I miss "real" school soo much and I really miss living up there, plus ALL my friends are up there with the exception of the guy I am kind of seeing at the moment who lives only about an hour from my place at home (versus about four and a half from school). I'm not really sure what's going on there at the moment. I was down to see him earlier in the year a couple times (for the weekend) but haven't seen him since, as I am still in the process of getting my full lisence and at the moment he's confined to his house since he hurt his right ankle really bad and hasn't been able to drive (he's even working from home)! Anyway, it's SOO hard to know what people are thinking if you don't know them really well and/or haven't been around them too much. He is also seven years older than I am, which I don't think is a big deal at all (but I'm not sure if he does or not ). I'm just hoping he likes me too, which I'm pretty sure he does but it's also hard to know what people are thinking (I know - I already said that).
So what else is new with me.... well, as I said, I'm going to school this year. The program is not mechanical engineering (which I CAN'T WAIT to get back to), but is an office program. One year only and I can't wait for it to be done so I can get back to Mechanical.
I've been driving more and am booking my road test at the start of the week. Fingers crossed on that one 'cause I can't wait to be able to go see *the guy*. Obviously anyone reading this by now would have figured out that I never mention anyone (including my own)'s name and/or the names of places I'm talking about. You know how the internet is.
I guess I'll end this for now 'cause it's getting late but I'll hopefully update more soon.
posted @ 10:03 PM CST [link]
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